Motivation? Or Torture?

I’ve been already very paranoid over my results and I sleep in fear of my “O” levels. Though tad exaggerated as it sounds, it’s daunting on me constantly how I can’t make it to JC with such pathetic results and I’ve been on mug-fest these days. The scary thing is that, while I always memorize [...]

Home

Amongst the sparse undergrowth,I hid in escapade.I don’t know what is home,nor would I ever want one.
Rain or shine, I don’t ever want to stay here.

Yio Chu Kang MRT Station

As I walked home,the overhead bridge remained the same.The traffic lights flashed as they do everydaybut one thing for sure,tomorrow will be a different day.
The “tomorrows,” however, are very limited.I have to learn to love like tomorrow never comes.Both my grandma,and myself.

With My Heart, I See

Let the videos speak for themselves.

It’s the World I Know

My sister left for China today. Good riddance. That was mean. But anyway, I always didn’t like her for this and that – it’s ironic with siblings. Staying with a sibling is…kind of a love-hate relationship I guess. They can be one of those people you abhor most but at the same time love dearly. [...]

Our Deepest Fears

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyondmeasure. It is our light, not our darkness, that mostfrightens us.We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?You are a child of God.Your playing small does not serve [...]

Unconditionality and Unworthiness

I was so confident of my mid-year exams this time round. I studied through the nights and utilized whatever I’m learnt to full effort. People supported me, gave me purpose and responsibility – I had to do well.
I thought I could do well this time, I thought I might not be that stupid after all. [...]

Strength in Weakness

She’s lost weight again, regrettably. I guess as time goes by, her body will start rejecting food more and more and I’m always trying my best to get the best food for her regardless of the distance or difficulty, just so it might be easier for her to eat. Colon cancer – what a good [...]

How Ludicrous

I could actually complete my physics!

I never ever thought I could do science. Chemistry and physics. Yet… for this examination, I felt this quiet confidence I’ve never felt before in doing science – I was hopeful. And that is almost ethereal, that I no longer felt such hopeless a person. I guess this [...]

Loss

It’s been some time. Someone whom I cherish dearly seems to be drifting apart further and further from me. I don’t know, it’s so different now. Like, when we speak, it’s becoming more and more distant. Because I was afraid you’d find me irritating, I became more and more mindful of my speech and actions, [...]