I’ve made countless promises to myself that I would no longer wallow in unhappiness and move on. Today, I kept pressing on. It felt the same, perhaps worse each day, but I know I need to get over it. Still, it never failed to let me understand that at the end of the day, I [...]
Entries from July 2008
July 27, 2008
God Help the Outcasts
I don’t know if You can hear me
Or if You’re even there
I don’t know if You would listen
To a sinner’s prayer
Yes, I know I’m just an outcast
I shouldn’t speak to You
Still I see Your face and wonder
Were You once an outcast too?
God help the outcasts
Hungry from birth
Show them the mercy
They don’t find on earth
God help [...]
July 25, 2008
Vision
Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not yet seen.
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Walking through the Guangyang secondary school gate, I felt like it is be my last time walking through it with it’s uniform. With a deep breath of a feeling akin to anxiety and excitement, I ran down the incline [...]
July 23, 2008
I tried asking a few questions, creating some talk or something. But it simply turned out that he really dislikes me after all. Well, what can I say? I’m a bloody horrible person to start with, a rotten friend.
Still, I’ve been disabled of the ability to trust anymore. He and some people used to make [...]
July 20, 2008
Truth
I’d have already known it very long ago, but I just chose to not acknowledge it. Now, finally, I’ve forced myself to accept it. The truth will always be the truth and I believe it sets me free. It hurts so much, it’s excrutiating, but I know that denial acts like a silent plague, it’d [...]
July 16, 2008
Right to be Wrong, Wrong to be Right
Start being wrong and suddenly anything is possible.You’re no longer trying to be infallible.You’re in the unknown. There’s no way of knowing what can happen, but here’s more chance of it being amazing than if you try to be right.Of course, being wrong is a risk.People worry about suggesting stupid ideas because of what others [...]
July 15, 2008
On My Own
It’s killing me. Seriously.I’d rather you tell me straight in the face, “I hate you” than do all this shit to me. Even when I attempted to break the ice and called him to inform him about some things, all he does is give me artic. Do you know how so damn bloody painful is [...]
July 13, 2008
Straightening things out
Alright, I’m starting to get overwhelmed by the alarming rate the clock is ticking.In less than a month, it’s prelims. After which, you’d get 6 meagre weeks – and it’s “O” levels already.Must. Study. Till. My. Mind. Explodes.“The Best is Yet to Be” – Anglo-Chinese School*.*see me there soon – very, very soon. Because “O” [...]
July 9, 2008
Temporary Rant
It’s been quite tiring, so many things. So many issues. I hate to rant, and often say that wise are the ones who solve problems instead of complain about problems. But I guess, I just needed an outlet. Perhaps just scream everything out and then move on. I might just feel lighter, I guess. I’ve [...]
